Sunday, 26 September 2010

I'm worth it, but was it?

I don't know where to put myself sometimes, the pain is so intense.

Helena took me back to the place that smells of dogs and when we returned home I was given some yoghurt and honey, which had a strange after taste.

Today I've been allowed to sleep on Helena's bed. Hmmm. I just need to rest.

Sunday, 19 September 2010


I'm now lying on the hammock with The White One and really happy to be back in the same space as the others. I feel so much more energised than I have been the past couple of days.

My armpits feel sensitive; it's weird to no longer have the weight and the bulk I'd been carrying there. Yes, I feel so much better today.

Friday, 17 September 2010

Home at Last

I feel really rough and weak. In pain. And I smell funny.

Helena appeared.

Now I'm back home. I can smell Rema and 'The White One'. But I'm on my own in the travel home. Feeling a bit sorry for myself.

Helena gave me some of my favorite food; yoghurt and honey and pine nuts. Among other things, but I wasn't interested.

Feeling thirsty. Groggy.

I'll try and sleep a bit.


I feel fuzzy. I can't quite wake up.

Still no sign of a familiar smell

No Say

The future lies not in our paws.

Helena dictates what we are fed and when we are fed; where we are to be located and when we are to be relocated.
Our choices are limited to when we eat and when we sleep and what we do within or designated spaces.
We can only interact with Helena when she makes herself available to us.

This morning, for the first time, I travelled alone in the travel home. I was taken to a place that smelled of other creatures and I was left there.

What is to become of me....?